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60 DAYS
What is worse
Having love and losing love
Or never to have love
What is to prefer
Having love and losing love
Or never to have love
My fingers keep a memory
My skin is not forgetting
So I guess it counts for something
I guess
It's better to lose than to never have

A BRILLIANT PLAN
I have a brilliant plan
And I just know this time it could work
I'd like to think we're not strangers anymore
I slept a thousand years
Still I'm hurting, you are not near
I had this urge to write to you before
I'll see you soon
I know it's a bad idea
I know you can never be near
But my tears felt so good in your arms
Your hand that held mine through the night
Let's go see the death of the day
Let's pretend it's a good idea
Let me think that I will be OK
It will be so good
Tomorrow I should be fine
I think at last it's not too much to ask
There is something weighing down on my soul
I don't know, I don't know

A CURE FOR THIS
My head up high and half-closed eyes
Slowly walking through the park
I hear no sound, I see no sights
I must find a cure for this
I must go and find it
Oh, must find a cure for this
A cat gave me scars but love is worse
I'm walking slowly through the park
This is the day of great delays
I must find a cure for this
I must go and find it
Oh, must find a cure for this
I can't be a part of what you say
And I can't seem to find my way
Find my way, find my way
But I've got a stone that I will throw
I'm not the one I used to be
My eyes wide awake
now watch me throw my stone
To find a cure for this
To go and find it
Oh, find a cure for this

ALL IS LOST
We were given a couple of years
And they gave us some pills for the fear
And we understood
They taught us the meaning of life
And we screwed up, they took us aside
And we understood
We came back to the place we once knew
It was changed now, yeah we were so few
And we understood
All is lost now
I know it is lost

AND NEVER SLEEP
There is hope for better cards
I'll sell myself and keep it all
The surface of a bleeding heart
Will wait to hear a call
And mornings of a drunken mind
Is all we want and wish to have
Someday i'll see you're not my kind
But there's no end of love
Your hands are cold inside my coat
The ground is stars with powder snow
So throw the stone now, will it float
Or burn up with a blow?
Behind a bed with white-like sheets
Come let us hide and never sleep
Drunken minds of tricks and treats
A bleeding heart that weeps
The water falls on our skin
The troubled mind is out of sight
So cut your heart and let me in
I won't forget this night

ANHEDONIA
This was not what I intended
This was not what I had in mind
People change and they disappear
I am still here
I've been thinking about the becoming
And I wonder what I have become
If you turn
Turn your face from me
I can still see
Must I tell you that I'm not stupid
Sure I realize all life must die
But sometimes some things are forever
Some words can never be lies
What about the things that you told me
How about the bodies we shared
All the hours that tied us togehter
The becoming that led to dispair
If you leave
At least just say goodbye
So will know why
Don't leave it to die
It's not what I intended
It's not what I had in mind
People change and they disappear
I am still here

ANOTHER DAY
One day
When you are me and I am you
When hate is love and false is true
One day when now is then
Maybe we'll meet again
Until that day you own my heart
Until that day We are apart
Oh how I wish I could, but I can't say
We'll ever meet another day

ASTRAY
Today
Strange lights
I can't explain
Moving lights
Away
Astray
I couldn't stay
It wouldn't be right
I can't make you feel
Allright
Are you ok?
Are you allright?
Are you ok?
Astray

CATHARSIS
I am the one that starts the fire
I am staying close to the heat
I feed upon my lovers and liars
I aim for total war and defeat
In my trail the fire spreads and burns
And everything is turning into dust
To cover the ground to grow a seed
Of a new brurning fire in me
I'm drawn to places of total danger
I laugh when you call me a fool
I see myself and I feel like a stranger
Third degree burns on my soul
But I know that I will always rise again
In order to fall down you have to stand
I love it and I hate it so much when
My love turns to dust into my hand
Oh why do I go for the hunt?
And I cry
Is this what I want?
Oh no
I cannot let it be seen
You must think I am a killing machine
In my trail the fire spreads and burns
And everything is turning into dust
To cover the ground to grow a seed
Of a new brúrning fire in me
Setting fire to everything I burn
I just don't know what it is without the burn
And the dust is spreading with the wind
It's time to recycle what I've learned
To do it again
To fall again

CREATING MONSTERS
It is not the easiest way of life
But it's not for me to decide
It's like I'm looking for ruin
It is like I'm creating monsters
Out of something good
Something sweet
Becomes a nightmare when I'm through
Well oh at least I know
I'm creating monsters
To keep me up
Keeping me awake
Disturbing, frightening
I want it so to last
Still all I know is how to destroy
Help me build a wall between
Me and my monsters
My self-created monsters
Well oh at least I care
Well at least I know

DON'T TALK TO STRANGERS
Don't talk to strangers
don't look around
life's full of danger
in this little town
Use elevators
avoiding the crowd
and don't talk to strangers
don't look around
Don't look around
Protected from talking
shielded from thoughts
alone when I'm walking
me and my thoughts
Me and my thoughts
To you I'm a stranger
to me you're no one
and don't talk to strangers
What's so exiting?
There's nothing to see
I'm trying I'm hiding
it's only me
There's only me
So don't talk to strangers
don't look around
life's full of danger

EMPTY
You're close to me
and the air is warm to breathe
you look so calm
you know what's going to happend
I know it too
I know it in my heart
So close to me
in my head we're already there
We have already jumped
into this warm thin air
I look at you
oh god I can't be calm now
Hold me closer
we can see the emptyness
I am not afraid
you say there is no danger
Come let us jump
before I'm stuck in fear
let us jump together now
Together now
together now
Let us jump
there will be no danger
let us jump
I will be no stranger

EVENING WHISKEY, MORNING LOVE
Stop and think, it's such a difference
Where did your kindness go?
I was there and you were with me
But yes was turned to no
We were young and we were laughing
Nothing that could kill
We were free and we were shimmering
But time is never still, oh no
I thought you tried to give me
Evening whiskey, morning love
Winter turned to summer
Left me aging in the snow
Hey my love, I hear voices
Inside my head
Don't forget, it has importance
Don't turn my love to hate, oh no
I thought you tried to give me
Evening whiskey, morning love
Winter turned to summer
Left me aging in the snow
The difference is so obvious
Evening whiskey, morning love
A cold is stuck within us
Evening whiskey, morning love
Evening whiskey, morning love
Oh
So stop and see, I think I've lost you
And now you're losing me

FICTION
I'm reading diaries like Fiction
my eyes in tears while reading
Stories of love and cruel addiction
a heart still pumping while bleeding
What kind of strange movie is this?
Who are the actors that surrounds me?
I follow non-existing scripts
and reading lines that I can't see
Who wrote the story of my days?
Who decides the direction of my ways?
Say, what's the way?
How do you see into the dark?
Hey, make a way
How do you live without a spark?
You told me I should take it easy
I told me I must take it easy
But you can see things that I can't see
and you can be what I can't be
Who wrote the story of my days?
Who decides the direction of my ways?
Say, what's the way?
How do you see into the dark?
Hey, make a way
How do you live without a spark?
Hey, take the movie away
I want to write my own book
Say it's OK
Take some more of what you took
Hey
Hey

FIVE
One, two, three, four, five
One, two, three, four, five

FLIGHT 11
We dreamt of other places and different things
We dreamt of leaving traces and growing wings
So with number 11 we took a flight
A sound within the engine turned joy to fright
We knew we had to crash it we went too far
We knew we'd never make it we went too far
Instead of watching cloud tops far from above
We're falling with the raindrops like shooting stars
And if you saw us now you would be amazed
We're crashing now we're falling we're into space
Look up you'll see us waving we're in the sky
Never thought this trip would mean that we had to die
Die, die, die

FORLORN HOPE
Close the window
Don't let the light shine in
I'm about to figure out
How I'm supposed to feel
What I'm supposed to be
What I'm supposed to do
Without you
It is funny really
How we said that this could end
Now it did and
How I always thought
How I thought that it was just
Something that we said
Leave me alone
Let me breathe own air
Please don't speak
When you walk out the door
When you leave me for sure
Don't tell me what I did wrong
I already know
I already know

HAIRY HELMET BLUES
I travelled fast and I looked back all the time
I crashed with ghosts of the future all the time
I'm out of fuel and I don't know where I am
I found a path and I know now where I am
But I'm not sure, I'm not sure
A path that never ends
I wonder where it ends
Don't want to know and still I'm searching
I must speed down until I know
I wonder what the end will show
Don't want to know and still I'm searching

HAUNT
It's here
Your voice
The walls are breathing
My fear
My choice
All now is melting
No now
No when
Time's not allowed here
No how
No when
No time for love my dear
Since you left me breathless
It's like we're drawn to sadness
I close my door
It's night and day now
Lay on the floor
I drift away now
Some lose
Some win
With all I wish for
I'll keep it in
Don't want to hurt more
Don't want to fight this war
Ever since I foud you
Sometimes I feel like
I walk behind you
Just like I walk behind you

HEART DISEASED
Red wine
Apologies
Broken glass and hearts
Water all over the floor
All is red wine
Hearthaches
I lost my shoes
Misunderstood
The sink is broken
And you said
How did you find me in this mess
Without a thought of tomorrow
I was looking for you without knowing
There would be sorrow
Red wine
Questions
Curtains
Thoughts and shoes
All over the floor
All is coming back
Falling into place now
Music
Dancing
Dreaming
Forgetting
Letting go
And you said
How did you find me in thes mess
Without a thought of tomorrow
I was looking for you without knowing
There would be sorrow
Sorrow
It's cold today
I'm breathing through my pillow
I'm closing my eyes
I don't want to see all your shadows
All your shadows

IN MY HEART FOREVER LOCKED
You're gone, you're gone
But you'll always be here
Always smile
Your smile will never die
In my heart forever locked
I remember you alive, alive
Now you're gone
But you will never die
Your love lives within
In my heart forever locked
And when I cry I see your face
And when I dance I hear your voice
You will never die
And when I cry I miss you so
And when I dance I see your face
In my heart forever locked
You're gone, you're gone
But you'll always be here
Always smile
Your smile will never die
In my heart forever locked

I REMEMBER
I remember how it was
I could touch your skin
I remember every time
You would let me in
Nearly morning, nearly bright
Darkness hangs above
My room as empty as my head
My heart is full of love
I can hear you
You're watching me, watching me
I try to reach you
You turn into stone, into stone
We could be the best of friends
I would really try
You're with me but still sometimes
It feels just like a lie
Please don't close your door so soon
Don't turn into stone
I remember how it was
Now I'm all alone
I can hear you
You're watching me, watching me
I try to reach you
You turn into stone, into stone
I can hear you
You're watching me, watching me
But what can I do
When I need you but you don't need me
I remember how it was
You would let me in

I WASN'T BORN TO MAKE YOU HAPPY
In this world
there are stupid things
Stupid people
stupid things are said
You like me
and oh yes I like you too
But it doesn't mean
that I am for you
(I am for me)
I will tell you this
I'm not a gift to your fortune
It is up to you
I wasn't born to make you happy
I've got only myself to blame
if I make mistakes
Feel trapped or free
There's no destiny, no
I will tell you this
I'm not a gift to your fortune
It is up to you
I wasn't born to make you happy
My life is not yours
Stupid world
Stupid people
Stupid words
Only stupid people breathe
I will tell you this
I'm not a gift to your fortune
It is up to you
I wasn't born to make you happy
My life is not yours
I like you but I'm not yours
Stupid world
Stupid people
Stupid words
Only stupid people breathe

LET IT PASS
We know, we know
And we shut up
We know everything
And we shut up
It's safe to keep our mouths shut
We let it pass
We know everything
And we shut up
We let it pass
It's safe to keep the mouth shut
We let it pass
We know, we know
And we shut up
We let it pass
It's safe to keep our mouths shut
We trade, we trade ourselves
We want safe
It's safe to keep the mouth shut
We let it pass
We knew everything
And we, we were safe

OBSTRUCTION
I adore you
I don't know you
One of us just have to go
Don't tell me I don't want to know
Your voice, come near me
And try to hear me
Neglectiong every sense for you
Thinking it could be my truth
Was I so wrong to wanted to belong?
Bruises fading
And disappearing
Left with everything withing
A feeling that I just can't win
It should be easy
It's never easy
Something always falls between
Someone always fall behind
Why must I always be someone?
I adore you
I don't know you
One of us just have to go
Don't tell me I don't want to know
Your voice, come near me
And try to hear me
Neglectiong every sense for you
Thinking it could be my truth
Was I so wrong to wanted to belong?
Bruises fading
And disappearing
Left with everything withing
A feeling that I just can't win
It should be easy
It's never easy
Something always falls between
Someone always fall behind
Why must I always be someone?

RIOT INSIDE
Here's a fence
A wall to keep offence
A bunker of consequence
A moat to keep defence
Here's a face
A smile without disgrace
The nicest, calmest haze
The mask that keeps me safe
Oh the riot inside
The war the war the war
The riot inside
The war the war the war
I hide a battle
The war the war the war
The riot inside
The riot inside

RIVER

Lay your fingers in my hand
Let me see you where you stand
I've been waiting oh so long
For this love to come along
There's a river that I know
I will take you to where it flows
There's a forest that I've seen
Will you go there with me?
Oh
There's a mountain underground
Spitting fire without a sound
Melting rocks as we go near
You are with me
I don't fear
Oh
Do you see me?
Well I'm right here
I have always been this near
It's like I've waited all along
For this love to come along
For your love to come along
I've been waiting to come along

SO COLD
I don't know what you feel about me
But I don't want you angry with me
Close to you is where I want to be
Still I know how hard that is to be
It's so cold
Every time I close my eyes there's you
And every single thought ends up with you
There's no entry there is no back door
There's no roof, no walls, there is no floor
It's so cold
Deep inside I know that this is right
But every cell within me lives with fright
Deep inside me I would like to feel
All the things I'm not suppose to feel
It's so cold
Against my will I'm walking on your trail
I don't see you but still I'm on your trail
I'd like to rule my life if that's OK
But when your here I don't know what to say
It's so cold

SOUL GLUE
Once we could talk for hours and
I never hesitate to call you my friend
you were my best friend
I don't think that I did anything wrong
but I just had to write you a song
to get along
But I will never forget you, no
Some days are hard to handle and
I read the letter I'll never send
the one I meant to send
Yes somedays it's harder to maintain
but I've got love to take away the pain
this is the way
But I will never forget you, no
We never talk, you never call
one message in all these weeks and that's all
not even one quick call
That makes me wonder what will be
I want a friend, I don't want misery
so let me be
But I will never forget you, no
I know that I shared my heart with you
you know that you chopped it into two
well that's just you
Although you're gone now from my mind
I know someone's waiting next in line
and that feels fine
But I will never forget you, no
I will never forget you, no

THE END
I hear the sea
it follows me
I can't hide
can't get inside
I am afraid
take me away
never again
never again
Mercy mercy let me go
mercy mercy take me home
what did I do to deserve a thing like this?
The gods must be mad
or have I been bad?
I'm frozen to my bones
and I'm all alone
Mercy mercy let me go
mercy mercy take me home
what did I do to deserve a thing like this?
Take me away
to a warm fine place where I can breathe and
dreaming away
wish myself to another place like this
I hear the sea
it follows me
I can't hide
can't get inside

THE MORE I IGNORE YOU, THE LESS YOU EXIST
She has painted eyes
Fancy dress
High heels
And I watch her as she turns the page to read the news
Breathe
She has something I don't
It's Thursday afternoon
Still she is
All dressed up
I would feel messed up
But she don't see me
I wonder if she
If she
I wonder if she
Oh how I feel like air
Invisible
It's obviuos she needs me so
Desperately
Why is it only obvious to me?
I'm changing the rules
From now on
I'm changing the rules
From now on
I'm changing the rules
The more I ignore her
The less she exists

THE PROCESS OF HEALING
Monday afternoon I'm smiling
Dancing with a boy and smiling
And walk around on clouds as I sing
But still I'm feeling blue
Tuesday, Wednesday I am flying
Just like little birds I'm flying
And I have no thoughts of dying
But still I'm missing you
Still missing you
Thursday is a day for lovers
Happy joyfull easy lovers
But I am all wrapped into covers
Because I'm loving you
Friday noon I'm drinking coffee
Reading books and drink black coffee
And I think that someday you'll see
But now I'm feeling blue
Feeling blue
Saturday I wake up early
Feeling happy though it's early
I wish my hair was more like curly
Oh how I'm missing you
Sunday night I won't go outside
It's dark and wet and freezing outside
And I'm trembling, I think I slide
Deeper into you

THERE IS NO FOREVER
I become the other
Changed in many ways
Am I still the one I used to be
Do you recognise me
Did I become myself
When so much has been lost
Saying goodbye to
everyone at once
This has been a strange year
Come with me this time
Everything has changed
And there is no forever
There is no forever

THE WORST IS YET TO COME
Nothing can harm you, there is no hate
Everything's better, everything's great
There is no anger, no thing you can't do
Everyone's happy, especially you
You think you're safe now
and you smile, but it's wrong
'cause the worst is yet to come
Once there were evil, every night
The city was ruined, it filled you with fright
You used to be haunted, and there was a war
You were followed by strangers, but not anymore
You think you're safe now
and you smile, but it's wrong
'cause the worst is yet to come
I am sorry but a smile won't help you trough
It is out now to get you
You are so happy, that life is this way
but you don't know yet, it will soon go away
You think you're safe now
but you won't be for long
You laugh about danger
and you sing silly songs
You think you're safe now
and you smile, but it's wrong
'cause the worst is yet to come
Yeah the worst is yet to come

THIS IS HOW IT GOES
This is how it goes
when I slide deeper
Deeper into you
This is how it feels
to find myself
Find myself in you
I'm recreating love
slowly growing
This is how it is
to feel something
Something at all
This is what I do
to make you feel
the same way as I do
I'm rebuilding my love
slowly falling
Re-accepting love
And we're creating love
slowly growing
This is all your fault, everything
But no, I wouldn't change a thing
Oh no

TOO MUCH OF NO TIME
How many times did I smile at the thought
how many times did we speak our souls
how many times did you feel you were caught
how many days will I be full of holes
How many smokes did we share in your room
how many mornings did you wake up by my side
how many stories brought laughter and gloom
how many days will you turn your face and hide
How many nights did I call you and cried
how many times did you wish I was there
how many steps from your house to mine
how many days until I'll never care
Not enough days to kiss you enough
not enough words to change to a smile
not enough time and waiting is tough
and so this is gonna take us a while

UNCOMMON
Such uncommon beauty
you've got
such an uncommon start
it was
such an uncommon summer
such an uncommon way
to break my heart

UNWRITTEN SONG
This is your unwritten song
Unwritten song
Until I write your song
This is your unwritten song

VOICE & NEEDLES
Please could you speak a little louder
It's hard to here you in my bunker
The walls may not seem thin or fragile
Ther're made of air
I'm using air
Recycling faith a little longer
It's bound to fail
I'm trying harder
But when your voice comes through the bunker
It makes me calm
It makes me calm
But still I'm trying harder to isolate
More and more to desolate
Here you come again
Armed with voice and needles
Keeps me on defence
Protected from what I need
Inside of my shelter
Makes me try harder and harder to isolate
More and more to desolate
Please could you keep a little distance
It's hard to keep my fingers from
Wanting yo tear the walls apart
And to stroke your hair
To give me air
But you keep trying harder to break in
More and more, you're closing in
Your closing in

WE ALL KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE
It's ok to fall down if you know how to get up
It's ok to feel odd if you don't think it is strange
It's ok to be mad if you won't make people sad
It's just a matter of time
We all know what it's like
It's ok to be strong if you're not afraid of weak
It's ok to take a rest if you think it's for the best
It's ok to be alone if you have yourself to meet
It's just a matter of time
We all know what it's like
It's ok to fall apart if it gives you one more start
It's ok to wake me up I won't fall asleep from you
It's ok to change your mind but don't hurt the one that's kind
It's just a matter of time
We all know what it's like

WINTER BLUES
So the winter is coming
and the sky is so clear
and I'm walking alone in this atmosphere
and I'm thinking about the days we had
when I was sad
And the winter is coming
but the letter you will recieve
won't tell you about these leaves
and the air is so clear and my hands are freezing
but you're not here
And I feel like dancing
but my feet are stuck on the ground
I can't seem to move them around
And I feel like singing
but the words are stuck in my mouth
I can't seem to get them out
So the winter is coming
and the air is so easy to breathe
but who cares when it's love I need
Oh and I remember your smile
even though it has been a while
And I feel like dancing
but my feet are stuck on the ground
I can't seem to move them around
And I feel like singing
but the words are stuck in my mouth
I can't seem to get them out
Oh and every time that I try
I'm afraid I will start to cry
So the winter is coming
and I'm thinking about the days we had
when I was sad
When the eaves fall down
I will pack my things and get out of this town
And I feel like dancing
but my feet are stuck on the ground
I can't seem to move them around
And I feel like singing
but the words are stuck in my mouth
I can't seem to get them out
Oh and every time that I try
I'm afraid I will start to cry
You know I feel like crying
but the tears are stuck in my eyes
it's like wearing a false disguise
And I feel like living
but my life is slipping away
I can't seem to make it stay